Day 22 - Cuddling

I am learning everyday how much my EC loves and cares for me. He is there for me when I am happy. He is there for me when I am sad. We are a team. I help him and he helps me. I love him and he loves me. Without each other, we are missing something. Our days don't run as smoothly and our thoughts wander. We don't need to be side by side, but we have learned to appreciate the fact that we are "one".

This means to me that when my EC hurts, I hurt. I want to make the world a better place for him. We enjoy working together on projects even though our approaches are generally different. We enjoy accomplishing those things that are difficult together. We love our children and want to serve and guide them.

As I have seen extraordinary challenges come to my EC, I have also seen my EC come to my aide in my times of distress. Today I had a particularly difficult day, and true to form he thought of some small bit of pleasure to cheer me. Today, he bought us macadamia nuts. Mmmmm.

I love this picture I posted today. Though I am definitely a dog lover on the outside, I am definitely a cat on the inside. Find me a sunny window and I will lie in front of it and sleep just to prove my point. I have even been found sleeping in the heat of the windshield of my car as I closed my eyes in peace for "just a moment". Cats are independent and picky. They let you know when they are interested whether its in food or for playing. They love to play on their terms but then just as contentedly return to leisurely stroll off to more important things ... like napping.

We have a cat that has adopted us. We are his people. He lives outside and his name is Moe. He loves Mark and really has no interest in me. He even expresses dismay when I get out of the driver's seat of our car instead of Mark, the favored one. Now, granted Mark is his Sugar Daddy, ever ready to fill Moe's food dish on the back porch, even escorting Moe through this daily ritual. Moe loves Mark, and I believe Mark loves Moe. At least I know Mark would be sad if Moe left us.

That is how I feel about Mark. I don't need or want his constant attention. I am a busy and independent woman after all. But if my daily ritual of being escorted to my daily fare of love and support was to be interrupted, I would greatly be affected. Not that I need the sustenance, but that I need my EC. I love talking with him. I am growing more and more appreciative of his insights. (This has taken almost 4 years.) I love being near him and hearing him breathe as he holds me close. I love his protecting arms around me. I love his sincerity ... and his questioning nature. I love his genuine concern for our family and our well-being. He is a good dad. He is a good EC. And, he makes me so happy!

My desire is to care for my EC as well as he cares for me. I am pleased at the discoveries I am making along this pathway. I never knew a companionship was so special. Thank you for teaching me this, my wonderfully patient EC. Your motives may have self-interests in them, but the rewards we are both reaping are immeasurable.

Hey, can we be cats together in our next life?? If not, can we just practice hanging together like those cats in the picture?

EC, I love you more each day.

Thanks for telling me with words as well as actions that you love me too.

377 days to go.